I want to be heard
22.female.bisexual. writer.reader.photo ninja.

Pennsylvania for now. Lancaster lady

Talk to me. I don't bite. (most of the time at least)

I put my heart on my sleeve through the words that I write on here. So read my soul and enjoy.

  • Released

    Dealing with the pressure
    The blame
    The shouts

    Holding in the opinions
    Never fighting
    It just wanted out

    Now completely shut down
    No chances
    No excuses

    Free to make my decisions
    choosing what’s best
    Dealing with the rest

    Alone

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  • Celebrities give everything charity
    Buying houses for homeless
    And food for the starving

    Proud people admit to failing
    Acknowledge they were wrong
    Step down without a fight

    Politicians fulfill what they promise
    Make everything fair
    Fight for the country’s well being

    Con artists truly sell high quality for cheap
    Wanting the product to last you
    Knowing you’ll never need to come back

    But in this world that just won’t happen
    The need to support is lost with power
    With only a few sparks left understanding

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  • why.

    it was supposed to be this way
    this pain
    the loneliness
    those echoes
    avoidance of eye contact
    shuffling pass
    without looking up

    why did you have to burn the bridge
    when I was standing
    hand still outstretched
    in friendship
    and with love
    just a need to
    start over

    I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough
    without the roof
    being shared
    splitting bills
    piggybacking
    helping out
    surviving together

    why.

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  • I’ve Always Wondered who God’s God Is

    destroyingpoetry:

    HER is reading her book when HIM approaches

    HIM

    Hey

    HER

    Hi

    HIM

    What’s your name?

    HER

    Her.  And you?

    HIM

    Him.  How are you?

    HER

    I’m fine—I mean, don’t you think this is bullshit?

    HIM

    I’m sorry?

    HER

    This.  All of this.

    HIM

    Me coming up to you in Washington Square Park?

    HER

    Yeah, that, but I don’t know—just, everything.  Like don’t you feel like we keep on having the same conversation over and over

    HIM

    I only just met you

    HER

    I know, I don’t mean you and me, I mean everyone

    HIM

    I don’t know anything about everyone

    HER

    I mean every time, don’t you think? It’s like hey

    HIM

    Hey

    HER

    What’s your name? I’m

    HIM

    Him

    HER

    I’m Her, and how are you?

    HIM

    Good

    HER

    Good, fine, whatever, it’s like don’t you feel like we keep on wasting so much time saying things just because they’re the things that you’re supposed to say, like okay, like here’s the script, and here’s where you smile, and laugh, and ask for my number

    HIM

    It’s okay if you’re not interested

    HER

    I’m just not interested in all this bullshit

    HIM

    Yeah, okay, that’s cool

    HER

    Like a lot of the time I think people are too busy reciting to say what they actually mean, like I get that people are afraid,

    HIM

    For example?

    HER

    For example what?

    HIM

    For example, what do you actually mean?

    HER

    That’s not the point

    HIM

    That is the point

    HER

    Well what do you mean, if that’s such an easy question

    HIM

    I don’t know, I don’t think about meaning a lot of the time

    HER

    Well that’s fucked up

    HIM

    I think it’s pretty normal

    HER

    Normal is bullshit

    HIM

    Somebody has a favorite word

    HER

    Normal? 

    HIM

    Bullshit

    HER

    You think you’re smart

    HIM

    Sometimes, yeah.  Don’t you?

    HER

    Yes.  I do think so. 

    HIM

    So why don’t we try it?

    HER

    Try what?

    HIM

    Saying what we mean

    HER

    Okay.  You first.

    HIM

    Okay.  Wait, I’m gonna approach you again.

    HER

    Okay.  I’m reading my book. 

    HIM

    Hey

    HER

    You messed up.

    HIM

    Crap, okay.

    HER

    I’m reading my book. 

    HIM

    I think you’re beautiful.

    HER

    Thank you, oh shit—I mean—I’m actually really pretty insecure right now because there was a guy I was trying to make eye contact with a few minutes ago and he wasn’t going for it

    HIM

    Your insecurity gives me a sense of security because I know it means it’ll be easier to get into your pants

    HER

    I would like to have fantastic sex with you and then creep out of your bed and your apartment without ever telling you my name

    HIM

    I don’t actually expect any physical contact to come out of this encounter

    HER

    I haven’t slept with anybody for a year

    HIM

    You haven’t?

    HER

    No, I haven’t

    HIM

    You’re closing off

    HER

    So? 

    HIM

    So that’s the whole point of this.  Who was the last person you slept with?

    HER

    It doesn’t matter

    HIM

    Sure it does

    HER

    This is stupid

    HIM

    You’re a hypocrite

    HER

    His name was Jonathan

    HIM

    Jonathan?

    HER

    Yeah

    HIM

    Was?

    HER

    Yeah

    HIM

    What happened?

    HER

    This is so dumb.

    HIM

    I am feeling infinitely more attracted to you right now than I did when I first approached you

    HER

    It’s stupid that girls have to be the ones to play hard to get

    HIM

    Maybe they don’t

    HER

    Or easy to get, whatever.  It’s stupid that girls have to play to get.

    HIM

    What would you do if I kissed you right now?

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    There is something about this I love so I needed to share it.

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  • The best of buds

    Let’s go on an adventure
    Somewhere we’ve never been
    Wherever the road goes
    Or to a town in no man’s land
    As long as we are exploring
    With smiles nice and big
    Creating stories to share
    Making all other jealous
    Cause it’s just what we do
    As friends
    You and me

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  • True friendship

    The moment you are making all sorts of plans with a friend because of posts on tumblr alexisannxox

  • lies

    your lies cut deep
    far reaching to my center
    cause my trust was binding
    when we were together

  • the thought of your arms
    wrapped around me
    as I wrap my around you
    drifting off to dreamland
    we are sure to do
    no need for words
    or actions at all
    the warmth for sleeping
    arms wrapped
    so we won’t fall
    because you are my safe keeping
    nothing else will go wrong

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  • alexisannxox:

    deliriamore:

    strangelyobsessedwithstuff:

    vialsofbrightforgettingpowders:

    ALRIGHT MOTHERFUCKERS, TIME FOR SOME LEARNIN SO SIT OUR BITCH ASS DOWN AND GET OUT OUR NOTEPAD

    THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE IS SUGAR SCRUB. YEAH I KNOW YOUVE SEEN IT BEFORE BUT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I KNOW AND THAT WHEN YOU USE IT WITH ONE OF THESE FUCKERS

    YOU WILL GET LEGS AND ARMS AND ANY OTHER SHIT YOU WANT THAT IS SO SOFT YOU WILL BE SHOVING IT IN THE FACE OF EVERYONE YOU KNOW AND ASKING THEM TO COMPARE IT TO THE TENDER PINK FLESH OF A NEWBORN

    SO GET YOURSELF SOME FUCKING WHITE SUGAR AND SOME CHEAP ASS OIL LIKE CANOLA OR SOME SHIT AND MIX THAT SHIT WITH TWO PARTS SUGAR AND ONE PART OIL( THAT MEANS TWICE AS MUCH SUGAR AS OIL BITCHES I USUALLY USE ONE CUP OF SUGAR AND DO SOME FUCKING MATH TO FIGURE OUT HOW MUCH OIL THAT IS) DROP A FEW DROPS OF VANILLA ESSENCE OR MAYBE SOME FUCKING LAVENDER OIL WHATEVER YOU WANNA SMELL LIKE. MIX IT UP REALLY GOOD MMMM SMELLS LIKE CAKE BATTER FUCK YEAH.

    NOW GET YOURSELF GOOD AND NAKED. REAL NAKED. PAMPER YOUR GODDESS-LIKE ASS WITH A BUBBLE BATH. TAKE ONE OF THOSE RAZORS YOU GOT AND SHAVE WHATEVER YOU LIKE TO SHAVE LEGS ARMS VAJAYJAY PITS I DONT FUCKING CARE.

    NOW GET OUT OF THAT GROSS HAIRY DIRT WATER AND SIT ON THE EDGE OF THAT THERE BATHTUB. TAKE A HANDFUL OF THAT SWEET GOOP AND RUB IT ALL OVER THAT SKIN OF YOURS(just dont use this stuff on or near your lady bits i put this in lower case because it is really important your love cavern does not like sugar uh uh no way its diabetic) RUB RUB RUB KEEP RUBBIN YEAH YOUR HANDS STARTING TO FEEL WEIRD GOOD BECAUSE ITS WORKING

    NOW TAKE THAT CHEAP-ASS DISPOSABLE RAZOR YOU HAVE AND SHAVE OFF THAT NASTY-ASS DEAD SKIN EWW ITS SO GROSS NO ITS NOT ITS YOUR OWN SKIN BUT ITS ALL GREY. RINSE OF THAT OILY STUFF BECAUSE YOUR SKIN AINT NO SLIP-N-SLIDE

    GOOD NOW FEEL YOUR NEWFOUND SOFT SKIN THAT WAS ONCE BURIED UNDER LAYERS OF DEAD FLAKES OF YOUR PAST SELF YOUR WELCOME MOTHERFUCKERS CLASS DISMISSED

    IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS POST FOR AGES
    thanks for the tip karkat

    I JUST DID THIS AND MY LEGS FEEL LIKE A FUCKING CLOUD

    emotionsforthepicking finally found it! Instead of regular vanilla or lavender, I used the black currant vanilla sensual oil from bath and body works…it was wonderful 😊😘
    alexisannxox I’m doing this once I can get to the store. This is one of the reasons we are friends. Hah

    (Source: sliceofbri)

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  • This is a break up

    There was a time we made sense.

    You picked up where I failed, and I did the same for you. We were an force to be reckoned with as our friendship continued to grow. It was the living together that was breaking and soon everything slowed. I became the one you yelled at anytime something went wrong. I was okay with ranting about others until ranting about me came along. You would not tell me a thing so I thought we were okay. Of course that was before I talked to my coworker and she told me what you said. You didn’t have to hide it, but it is your nature it seems. You rather hide from your problems than saying anything so fixing can begin. So forgive me for not wanting to stay on this path, but living together is now in the past.

    So when you stop hiding behind your wall of silence, I hope you will finally see. See that I am still your friend in this life and will come to your defense.

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